Tuesday, January 13, 2009

School has been a dread to be in and be attending religiously. I only look forward to breaks and after school, well at least I USED to. Now, all I have as a plan is be home.

Friends are busy and things are not how it used to be. I have honestly never felt the feeling of being alone. Being in my solitude is great but when it is too long, it becomes lonely. I am not so much of a social butterfly I guess but having a companion is needed. It is a need rather than a want. I do entertain thoughts of flying away and coming back after a month. It would be great. Leave everyone behind only to return and feel appreciated.

Take me out will you?

Labels: take me out

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Life has not been so great. Life has not been easy either.

Sometimes I wish I have control over my feelings and be less fickle.
It sucks when your emotions take over your stable state of mind.
Its amazing how such events can just crumble your strength.
But I have no qualms or doubts loving you darling.

It sucks to be fickle.
Clothes.
(What should I wear? maybe this..oh wait, this looks nicer, but wait, this makes me look fat, this is too revealing.)

Food.
( What should I eat? Fastfood..KFC!YUM!but wait too much fried food for the past weeks. Maybe real food, But wait, too filling. Maybe salad, but nah, too expensive and not fillling, but wait, need to llok the body mass. But wait.....)

Choice of Education.
(Should I do something I feel like doing or should I do something with a secured future. OH WAIT, but what if I hate doing it)

Friends
(She is pretty, it would be awesome to be bff with someone hot. He is handsome, it would so complimenting for my profile. Or should i trust these people or can i be close to these people.....I like her...but...i like him..but..oh wait, he look so much nice..he is this...he is that....bla bla bla )

Alot more topics where one can be fickle about.
I feel so low day to day not knowing where this is going
Trust not to trust
It sucks not knowing if u should or not trust

If only I can control the things that appear in mind and all.
But I guess, darling has been making me strong.

Labels: Ich liebe dich

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