Labels: 21st January 2003
Labels: I love Muhammad Azri
SOMETIMES LOVE JUST AINT ENOUGH, by Patty Smyth and Don Henley ( sometimes, they say u cannot love someone 100% because where would ur love for urself stand? But sometimes, loving someone, u cannot say "hey i want to love u 50%,"..its ridiculous...But i guess, if we put all the eggs in a basket, if it topples, ul have nothing,u'll have pain. For me, i have learnt that wen i put in all, and when u left, it feels so empty that i lost my vision for my life, it became aimless. Now my love for u can not be measured or weighed. It is there as it is. It is beyond any descriptive ability of the language. beyond words..) THATS ABOUT IT! long uh my entry..but i feel good writing out my feelings. Thank u fer reading darlin(if u are). Those of u who happen to come across my blog. I hope i gave u some insights or at least have shared experiences. Pardon for my language. Take care people. Ily muhammad azri..xoxo..i miss schattig cheri.. Labels: I love u darlin., love is painful but its worth it
Labels: How I wish things are different......Thursday, May 14, 2009
I have also concluded that boys who talk alot and crap too much and somewhat the one who is all talk and no shit is the one u need be careful of. Apart from that, girls need to be careful with BOYS especially when they try sweet talk you. One day when i have a foolproof plan, all u loserish boys will go down mann..Fuckers..U dun deserve to be even breathing and living near humans. Filth like u, dun even fit to be amongst rubbish. HOWEVER, thanks to such people, I now know what to look out for in a boy. ASSHOLES.
Dun u talk like u own me. Dun talk like u have me. Dun talk like u tasted me. Hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn. U are just ultimately dumb to get urself involve with any woman who would hold on to such grudges and would just feed on ur downfall mann. U are a dog for.U salivate wen u see me and rub ur dick against the floor JUST TO SATISFY UR ANIMALISTIC SELF. Go hump your mum, u asshole. Claim whut u wanna, u aint gonna get a piece of me...WAHAHAHHAAHAHA.. this is not meant for my loved ones..
il blog in again later or something. BOTTOMLINE..Im glad and thankful I have MUHAMMAD AZRI in my life..thank u darlin for being my strength and support, especially during times like this.I LOVE U..i really do........
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Today made me realise that children these days are growing too fast. Scare the shit out of me. Hey people, seriously, take things easy mann. I had a distubing experience with a group of homosapiens with pretty much low intellectual ability. They are living in denial and think that life is a fairytale. Oh fuck..so naive..Well, i have said my piece to them. Species like them would unlikely have understand my point. U people go on reading books with happy endings okie? Good.
MOVING ON!
Today's topic for the class discussion is Gule-gule paling hot dalam class. She has the habit of sucking up to all the facilitators and even the pple around her. Will she learn she dun have to be "cute" to make friends?
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Anw, I came across this song..the lyrics..IS amazing..Some of u would be able to emphatise such moments when u are deeply in love with someone..might be able to describe how I felt on that eventful day..a description of what I felt on that day darlin..i hope u would read it..i love u..Despite all this, love will pull through. Whoever said LOVE will always be wonderful?! u MUST be naive to think love brings u up to cloud 9. Love IS painful, but whut makes love wonderful is because the pain that u go through is WORTH IT. No other happiness can make u feel that way.
Song is sang by a girl and a guy.
Now, I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
( i DEFINITELY do not want to lose you. Going through two years all by myself is a bitch. A feeling, so painful that i would rather die than go through that again. I am definitely not using you for any personal gains, u gave me support, believe in me, hold me and walk the winding road of life. )
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.
( i do not want to be crying alone darlin. I dun want to be hurt and heal on my own. Despite gg tru that shit, knowing that I have u is somewhat comforting. But at times, my tears run dry and at times i don't want to be the one to cry. Do understand my view where i am trying my very best to not restrict u in any form but i hope u are aware of the issues that i dislike. It is not for m y selfish reasons but im just uncomfortable. I know u never mean to hurt me. I always have forgiven u.)
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.
(this paragraph would explain how i feel back in those years where i would be the one waiting and praying u will come back. I always have. loving u have been both a painful and a fulfilling one. No one would b able to make me feel this way again daarlin. i love u)
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
( u KNOW, i have always love for what u r inside. I never have tried to change u. But if habits that is destructive of urself, definitely i would do my best to make u a better person. well, thats love. we grow together to be someone better than yest. )
(guys part)
Yes, I may have hurt you,
but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.
( This part is VERY IMPORTANT. this part was sang by the guy. AND..this explains y u felt that way that day.. u just want to have it all, "i want my choice and i want u"...sometimes in life, we do get whut we want but we dun get EVERYTHING we want. And i too understood that u had no intentions of hurting me and u did not know it would have hurt me that bad. This part made me cry cause i feel like i am a useless gf cause i might have misunderstood u. BUT BOYS NEED TO LEARN THAT WEN THEY ARE ANGRY, CAN THEY BE CAREFUL OF WHAT THEY SAY?..but hey, boys are best left alone wen they are angry. but i do understand now. dat does not mean im healed darlin, the scar is still there only i am trying to heal it partly, cause the rest u figure out k darlin, cause u always have..i love u)
It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Staring out this window and all I can see is the contours of the roads and the hills and the vast sky.
How I wish I can fly, fly far away and not feel like this today.
How does it feel like when ur insides are turn out?
How does it feel when u fall from a 100th floor?
How does it feel when God takes away your ability to breathe?
That was whut I felt when I read the conversations I had with u. I could not swallow. I could not think. I could not blink. I was stunned. Everything stopped. Everything that means so dear to me was taken away from me. Dumbfounded but Im screaming inside. Stabbed in my heart so deep. All I could feel was pain.
How would you feel when u try to make the ones u love happy by sacrificing your happiness. I laughed to cover my pain but my tears gave me up. How can I laugh when something that means your world to you react in that manner.
Why love have to be painful?
Why is your absence blamed?
Why am I useless?
Why I am naive?
Why am I sacrificing so much for my loved ones?
Why?
Absence makes the heart fonder.
I used to believe and still do but I realise, not everyone feel that way.
I guess not for you.
Absence makes your heart wonder.
U wonder of issues, issues I wish didnt exist
I hoped all these is a dream........
but i guess not...
Muhammad Azri
210103
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